Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Farrah Admits to Abusing Drugs After Sophia Was Born

Farrah's new book "My Teenage Dream Ended" is coming out very soon. So Farrah is spilling some juicy and shocking details of her life to the media, most likely to get people wanting to read her book.

In an interview with InTouch Farrah admits to abusing cocaine and marijuana after Sophia was born. She was having a meltdown due to Derek's death and the struggles of being a single teen mother. Farrah started to spiral out of control.

She admits to wanting to kill herself. Which would be 2 out of 4 of the original Teen Moms with that problem. 
"I figured I would drown myself in the bathtub, it seemed like the easiest way to go." She even contemplated the letter she would leave for Sophia.

"When I drank I'd be happy for 10 minutes... when I got high, I'd feel a sense of nothingness for about an hour. But in the end my negative emotions always came rushing back." 

"I realized I was being selfish.... The most important thing is making sure that Sophia's well taken care of. How am I going to do that if I'm dead?" 

She goes on to talk about how therapy helped her and she was diagnosed with clinical depression. It looks like Farrah's new book is going to give people a new perspective on Farrah and her life. 

31 comments:

  1. Wow thats crazy. i know most people are going to talk crap about it but unless youve gone through a certain type of depression you have no idea what its like. ive gone through post partum depression 2 times and both times i.had thoughts about killing myself and its hard to deal with emotions that people dont understand. so before people start talking crap think of it as you being the single parent with or without help. its hard either way.

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    1. 100% agree people are already saying its a publicity stunt which is pathetic to say

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    2. Honestly, I wouldn't be surprised to find out it's a publicity stunt or that she only tried drugs one time or something like that only because that seems like a pretty big thing to hide (not the depression, we all saw that, but the drug use). I was shocked to read this article, so don't you think someone would have at least suspected something?

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  2. I love Farrah so Ill be buying this book as soon as it comes out, This will be the 2 book that ill ever read in my life.

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    1. That is so sad :( The first one can't have been very good.

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    2. Girl reading is good for you. That's pathetic.

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    3. Wow I can't imagine only reading 2 books my entire life. I really hope you are kidding. In order to get very far in life you have to read. I read more in elementary school than 2 books.

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  3. I hope Farrah continues to do better - but let's face it. She blames everything on Derek's death, and they were not even getting along when he died!

    She idealizes him and what life would have been like, and it may actually be harming her. Does she really think things would have worked out in the end? That he would have put up with her attitude and demands?

    I feel horrible that she went through a bad time, and that Derek passed away, but she isn't dealing with reality, just a fantasy.

    I don't find her drug use that surprising. What I do find surprising is that it stayed quiet until she mentioned it! WOW.

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    1. She either 1) hid it from the mtv camera crew and told no one she was using or 2) mtv knew but they didn't include it in the show bcus they wanted to depict her in a certain way

      Either way, girl has been thru a lot and its good she overcame it for sophia. Don't judge her.

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    2. With all the blogs devoted to these girls, you'd think someone would have found out before now.

      And I agree that she needs to stop blaming Derek's death. I can totally understand her idealizing him right after he died, but eventually she's got to accept reality or she'll never really get better.

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    3. I agree. They weren't even in contact when she was pregnant..and then suddenly after he dies, they were 'together' and were going to live happily ever after? It is normal to idealize a person/relationship after someone dies, but I too agree she takes it too far. He was never mentioned on the show and then suddenly it came up everywhere and she makes up all this stuff. To me it looked like they wouldn't have been together and he may not have even been involved in Sophia's life. I can't understand the pretence really.. and I'm a widow myself. No one's gonna judge her if she misses him and grieves him, even as an ex, but why act like they were in love?

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    4. I have been thru what she's going thru in losing Derek!! However, my daughter was 5 when my husband, who I was separated with, died!! Just bc you are no longer toether does not mean you did not still love that person!! We did not see her relationship with Derek, only pictures....and the pictures that we did see, they seemed very happy together!! And none of us, not even Farrah, knows how their relationship would have been in the future!! Being a single mom with no chance of the father ever helping you is very hard and depressing!! None of us have any right putting her down for being sad about losing Derek and it is natural for her to wonder what life would've been if he were still here!! Until u have walked ONE day in her shoes you have no right talking crap!!

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    5. I agree that it does suck that she lost Derek, and the what ifs have to be hard as well. But when we saw her on 16 and pregnant, she said she wanted nothing to do with him anymore, and the one time we saw her talk to him (on the phone) she didn't even want him to know she was pregnant with his child. Also there was no mention of his passing, you would think if it was that traumatic for her they would have said something back then on 16 and Pregnant instead of waiting till I believe the middle of season 2 of Teen Mom to say anything about it. I don't doubt at all that she was depressed it really would explain a lot of her mood swings. I also don't doubt that she has some sadness for Derek's passing, especially for Sophia, but is it possible she is exaggerating it just a bit?

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  4. Wow. This is totally unexpected.

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  5. It's really unfair that people are saying these things about the relationship Farrah had with Derek. Who are we to judge? Regardless of their terms at the time of his death, he was still someone Farrah had been in love with, he was still the father of her child and he was still a young man that died tragically. None of us are Farrah or Derek, and as such, none of us have a solid platform from which to dictate how Farrah is "allowed" to feel about his death.

    If Farrah wanted to hide her drug addiction, she could have. A lot of families would blame any erratic, strange behavior on being a young mom who lost the father of her baby, and wasn't sure how to deal with the things life had thrown her, rather than assuming she was abusing drugs. Plenty of families even just ignore the problem, because it seems easier than confronting it head on. Maybe her family even knew and dealt with it quietly instead of exposing it to MTV (obviously I mean with something like regular therapy sessions [especially since we've see Farrah in therapy before, it's nothing new], and not with rehab; that would have been difficult to keep out of the public eye).

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  6. ok to people that think its all an act of her trying to get more fame i have to say this to you. i have depression in fact i have had depression before my daughter was born but after i had her it got too out of hand. when i didnt have her i smoked pot and drank at the same time and hid it from everyone. so really stop being rude. mtv does not show everything that they film and the camera crew is not around them 24-7. so just stop. no one should say anything unless they have been down this road

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  7. Yes..no one except Farrah and Derek know what their relationship was like. It doesn't matter if they were together at the time or not. I don't think she is faking her drug use. It wouldn't be the first story we heard about MTV enbaling 16 and P/Teen mom members access to hard drugs (i believe there was an earlier story relating to it). It would explain her extreme bipolar behavior that we see on camera and postpartum depression combined with her initial depression would be extreme and detrimental to a person's state of mind. Everyone should back off on their criticsm of the news. It happens a lot!

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    1. Also..I'm not saying its not a publicity stunt but i believe it probably happened.. she is just sharing the info now because it definitely makes people interested in reading the book (which is typical of any kind of book or movie release to do)

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  8. why are people saying that drug use is hard to hide? i hid the fact that i smoked marajuana from my mom for 3 years before i stopped and then told her everything. and i know alot of people who do cocaine and hide it from everyone! so its really not hard to hide AT ALL!

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  9. I've read in other articles the teen moms have partied and done drugs together but it never said who.

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    1. Amber blamed MTV for her ability to get drugs. Nikkole Pualun said that on 16 and pregnant they enabled her boyfriend to have access to hard drugs such as cocaine and felt that there were plenty others who MTV helped get drugs during filming that try not to say so.

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  10. so if sophia was 2 when farrah "spiraled out of control," then is all of this happening behind the scenes in the season that we're watching right now?

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  11. I feel her pain, I feel like that sometimes. People are going to talk bad about her, but until someone goes through that pain, they will never know what it feels like. It's especially hard for young single mothers, I know, I have 2 young children, one being 18 months and the other being 2 months. I wish I could reach out to her and let her know she isn't alone, there are many women going through the same thing. The only thing that keeps me sane is seeing my children happy! My world my everything!

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  12. what i don't like is when "celebrities" acknowledge drug use and imply that they had a problem with drugs but then claim to have been cured by therapy. Drug addiction and alcoholism are diseases, and i'm not saying she has either but it's irresponsible to lead people to that conclusion and then claim to be cured. moreover, we see her drink on the show. People who have alcoholism generally must abstain and change their whole lives. I wish her well, and I have no doubt that she suffered from depression and self medicated with drugs, but i wish she would draw that distinction a little better

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  13. Judgements aside, I am glad she realized that her behavior was a problem and decided to do something about it and get better. Doesn't matter how she got better, she did make the effort which I applaud her for. So many people spiral out of control with drugs and alcohol. My dad is an alcoholic and I grew up watching it destroy my family, I know what it does when it gets out of hand. Although I don't know what she went through when she lost Derek, you could see how much it hurt. Glad she got better, and became successful.

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  14. I don't care how depressed you are, I don't care who died. Bitch get the straw out of your nose and take care of your kid. Farrah is a horrible persona nd a horribl mom. Debra should take a page out of Barbras book.

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    1. oh and for the record I am a single parent. I had ppd BAD. I do have an idea of what she felt. I still didn't leave my daughter to snort fucking coke. Besides she didn't even tell Derek she was pregnant. Did she really think he would have forgiven her for that? Maybe after a long time but that is jsut fucked up.

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    2. If you payed any attention to the show you'd know Derek said he knew he was Sophia's dad and was planning on being there for her and Farrah!

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    3. Farrah is not a horrible mom, what show are you watching? You've never been in her position don't judge her! At least she's coming out about it and stopped herself before anything serious happened! She's always there for Sophia now she is a great mom. I don't know what you're thinking.

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  15. This isn't really relevant to this particular story, but I don't know where else to ask so hopefully people are still commenting on this story. I was watching a Teen Mom rerun and Farrah told Daniel that she moved from Iowa,but in the same episode she told her sister that she'd never move back to Omaha, which is in Nebraska. So where is so actually from?

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